I Am

In the effort of continuing to write more often, I am back to write about who I really am...or portions of me anyway...

I am...married.
Yes, I'm sure that's quite the shocker, but it's true. Married. Which, lately, is an emotional roller-coaster. Right now, we are on the not-so-fun side of this roller-coaster. So, to me, that means that I found someone who is the calm to my complete chaos. He lets me babble about all sorts of junk--like what book I'm currently reading or what type of recipe I'd like to try if I ever got on Chopped. Marriage is more than that though. It also means commitment. Committing to be there for the person you chose. Committing to not chase after others, even when it is tempting and thrilling.

I am a mother...and motherless
You all know this about me. But what's hardest about being a mom, to me, is being a mom without my mom. I have amazing women in my life who really help me out when I need that mother figure. No doubt. But, forgive me, some days, I just need my momma. I want to hug her neck and tell her how crazy the past four years have been since she left. I'm sure she knows this though, and I firmly believe she frequents my house. I know she knows my children. I just wish they could know her. That poses a challenge for me.

I am...not fearless.
As a mom I get to play Super Woman all day long. Making it seem like I have no fears. I'll tell my girls this someday, but, I am NOT fearless. I pray every day that when I get into my car, I make it home safely. I pray that my kids stay healthy and happy. I have major fears. Mostly that I'll have to fend off some evil monster in the closet, or worse yet, that my mistakes will cost me my children. Another fear: snakes. I hate snakes.

I am...open-minded.
Some might call this "liberal". I'd agree for the most part. Personally, I just like to say that I'm open to all things. Well, most things. Maybe not sky diving. Or snakes. But really, I'm open to change. I'll even change my mind if you can prove to me a better solution. I like that about myself. I think that's one of my best features. Being open-minded means I'm good with most solutions. I'm less open-minded if you shove things down my throat. But all-in-all, I like to shed my skin and move on. Change can be, and usually is, good. Just have to be open to it.